while i was in medical school . . .

Here's One of the Many Reasons I'm Glad to Be a Man . . .

2007-02-25T15:41:00.000-06:00

So if you've ever wondered why females are so complicated I have the answer - reproductive hormones. With guys, it's easy because there's essentially only one hormone to keep track of - testosterone. With women, testosterone also comes into play along side the ever popular estrogen and progesterone and the less familiar LH, FSH, GnRH, and even insulin. The control of female sex hormones becomes even more complicated one considers the multiple fluctuations they go through each month. This of course isn't including all the locations in the female body where these are being produced and all the endless ways they're regulated.

Of course the complexity of female hormones makes sense if you think about the complexity of the female 's primary sexual function - that is, to reproduce another human being. After all, all we have to do is somehow manage to get a sperm in there somewhere and the woman does the rest. It's quite an amazing piece of machinery the female reproductive tract is. However I could do without it.

I know women often refer to our simplicity with condescension but to tell you the truth I don't mind. Simplicity is good, dependable, something you can trust and count on. Complexity, well, um, you know . . .

Fortunately, modern medical technology has produced a means of female hormonal control with birth control. If only it had the same effects on emotion as it does on the menstrual cycle.

In other news, I'm getting anxious to end another block. As interesting as reproductive endrocrinology is I think I've had enough for a while. I don't think I can do OB.

What's Colder . . . Grand Forks or the North Pole?

2007-02-11T21:01:00.000-06:00

http://www.kxnet.com/t/grand-forks-nd/93133.asp

It Takes Guts to be a Med Student

2007-01-12T20:58:00.000-06:00

This last week, and also in the upcoming two weeks, we had the priviledge to actually dissect and explore the guts in anatomy lab. Its funny but that's actually what the digestive system is referred to as - the "gut tube."It is after all just one big tube with some different shapes and variations in between. Of course there are a couple notable other "glands" as well (i.e. - pancreas, liver). Though I never would have predicted it, I have to say that this lab was one of the most exciting labs I've had yet. It makes a person question their moral character when they are enjoying identifying different parts on someone's colon.

Sorry Girls, I'm Married . . . to Grand Forks

2007-01-07T20:13:00.000-06:00

Since I moved to Grand Forks for medical school I've wondered why I am here. It seems that everything I love - being outdoors, experiencing different cultures, good coffee shops and microbreweries, and my friends - disappeared once I left Minneapolis. I often ask God if he brought me here or if it was my own blind ambition that led me to Grand Forks. I ask him why I had to leave Minneapolis in the first place.

To tell you the truth I don't know. In fact I may never know. However, as I've recently concluded, it doesn't matter. God is faithful whether I am or not. I decided the main problem that I've encountered since moving here has nothing to do with the location, geography, or demographics of this place. It's my attitude.

It just doesn't matter where we end up working and living in this life. I repeat, IT DOES NOT MATTER! As far as I'm concerned there are as many people to be loved in Hoebunk, ND as there are in Darfur. Moreover there is as much joy to be found in Grand Forks as there is in Minneapolis, even if they don't brew Black Knight here or know how to properly make a shot of espresso. I hope to remedy the espresso situation sometime soon.

So, God willing, I'm going to try and enter my 3rd block with a radically different attitude. I will love Grand Forks. Wow, that sounds weird. This may take some time.

I guess my situation in Grand Forks is kinda like that awkward feeling after getting married when one day you wake up next to your spouse totally blindsided by what you just got yourself into. All the sudden your not in love. All that work you put into the wedding seems foolish. You then need to make a decision whether to work at this or not.

I've decided I'm going to work at my relationship with Grand Forks. I'm going to ask her out on a date. I want to relive the passion that we had when we first started dating. I'm thinking Burger Time. You know, something classy to let her know I'm in this for the long hall . . .

I'm 1/8th of the Way Done with Medical School . . . Yay

2006-12-22T11:16:00.000-06:00

Hello blogging friends! I'm back from the cold, dark cavern of physiology graphs, histology slides and patient presentations within the hidden corners of the "fishbowl" at the school of medicine and health sciences.
Here's our school website if you're interested: http://www.med.und.nodak.edu/

I apologize for the lack of blogging over the past month, if anyone has actually visited my site. Despite my appearance as a non-chalant laid-back dude I'm actually a super studying freak when it comes to school. Fortunately it has paid off once again. And once again, I'm absolutely blown away how well I did considering how frustrating at least one of the exams was. My previous blog explains my fascination with our tests if you're interested.

So here I am, 2 blocks down, 6 more to go, then another year and quarter in North Dakota, and then . . . who knows, maybe overseas to finish my 4th year.

Assessment Week

2006-12-22T10:47:00.000-06:00

I have to say the most interesting week in medical school is assessment week. This is the very last, 9th week, of our block when we get to receive "our pay" as my anatomy instructor likes to put it.

In most medical schools, or graduate schools, or undergraduate curriculum for that matter, one will be tested frequently throughout the semester to evaluate their progress on "mid-terms." Of course this makes sense. After all in any curriculum and especially in graduate school one will receive a high volume of information and it seems impossible to expect any student to know how much of that volume they're supposed to understand and regurgitate. Apparently the med school here has rebelled against such an idea.

The joke that 2nd year students tell us during the first block for studying advice for the first assessment week is "too not worry . . . just make sure you know everything." Of course this is impossible. According to my dad though this is just something I'll have to get use to - that is, not knowing everything. That's because as a doctor you are a "lifelong learner" and you'll be constantly flooded with information everyday for the rest of your life and it is your responsibility to siphon through it all and decide what is and what is not important.

In light of this I guess it does make sense why UND makes us endure the brunt of eight weeks of physiology, cell biology, embryology, anatomy, and histology without any sort of evaluation of our knowledge and understanding of the class material. It's preparation for the real world of a career in medicine. It's probably the same reason why 64 anal retentive and relatively smart medical students feel like they fail every exam during each assessment week. Because we didn't know everything. Yet somehow, someway, very mysteriously in a somewhat sort of Gandalf-wizard-mystical-style we all not only pass, but most of us usually do quite well. It's so very interesting. Like if Gandalf was our teacher and he took all our crappy test scores and made them good. That'd be cool - to have Gandalf as my med school prof. I think I'd give him a good evaluation.

Pain and Brokeness . . . A Source of Strength - The Musculoskeletal System

2006-11-10T22:40:00.000-06:00

Pain is an inevitable fact of life. Sooner or later we will have to face it. But how do we react when we do? I would like to discuss this in context of the physiological process of muscle adaptation and repair, which I feel accurately reflects the true reponse we need to take.

Unless your name is Mark, most of us need to work out in order to be buff. That is we must put in the pain, sweat, and tears of an intense weight workout if we want to gain muscle strength. It's this pain and soreness of working out that tends to keep busy med students unmotivated to exercise. But why must there be pain? And what is happening to create that soreness? Gossh!

Well, what you may not know is that when you work out intensely you are actually causing damage to your muscles - mechanical damage of muscle contractile proteins, surrounding collagen damage, inflammation, and lack of oxygen transfer (ischemia) to be specific. This response by our muscles creates a delayed soreness even a day or two after a workout. There is also that nasty "burn" that we feel as an immediate response to lifting weights, which is lactic acid spilling around our muscles due to lack of oxygen during energy metabolism. This is painful to even think about. No matter how counterintuitive it may seem though, muscles have to go through this pain, damage, and soreness if they are to gain strength. Why?

When muscles undergo damage from exercise they adapt by generating new contractile proteins, oxidative enzymes, collagen fibers, so that it will be prepared for next time. This increases the size of the muscle cells (hypertrophy). It does not necessarily increase the number of muscle cells (hyperplasia) though some studies indicate there may be a small percentage. Thus, our muscles are like an army battalion that, when under attack, has the insight to call for more troops and artillary to increase the size of the army.

Some may call our muscles' ability to adapt an "evolutionary" development to help us survive; I call it a design to help us be who we need to be. If I need to be a construction worker, repeated stress on my muscles by moving concrete over time will actually increase my strength so that I can work harder. If I'm a doctor though, chances are that I won't place that much stress on my muscles as much and thus will not develop the same amount of strength as a construction worker. But that's okay because I don't need it. My brain will help me survive more than my muscles. Remember, "it's our wits that makes us men," (Malcolm Wallace) not out muscles! Of course, this could be a defense mechanism for skinny med students like me.

Seriously though, just as our muscles need to undergo damage and pain to become stronger, so must we become broken at times to gain strength or perseverence to become who we need to be. I don't need to quote scripture to prove this (though I could - Ps. 34:18, 51:17, Ecc. 7, Is. 52-53, Ezk. 34:16, Rom. 5:3-5, I. Cor. 1:27, 2:3, 4:10, II Cor. 11:16-32, Heb. 2:10, Jam. 1:2-3,12). Even before I took my faith seriously, I endured the crap of having patches of hair loss during junior high and beginning of high school. This broke me deeply, I hated it. To avoid belaboring my personal experience with depression, addiction, and loneliness; I'll just say that by God's grace I got through it and I'm stronger for it. I would never take my experience back. I'm sure we all have our stories or, if not, we will.

So how do we react to painful experiences? Okay, I'm not trying to provide an easy answer here. The crap we each have to deal with is different. Sometimes resolution never takes place and we're left in the dark. Also, going back to the muscle analogy, permanent damage does occur that does not result in increased strength. There is no simple equation that pain and suffering = strength (eventually). Does that mean we should avoid pain though? I don't think so. I think we should face it, accept it, and have hope even if the answer never comes. I think we should talk about it with others who love us and be open. Yes, this does require that akward character of vulnerability that we stubborn, unconfrontational Scandinavians and Northern Europeans seem to struggle with. It's being weak. It's letting go. It's patience, for that time of recovery and strength to come.

This requires community. Hmmm, interesting, I didn't think about that. You see, muscles recover and become stronger only because of the blood vessels, repair cells, nutrients, and biochemicals that flee to support it. In fact, when muscle cells are missing these supportive structures (as in muscular dystrophy when the protein dystrophin is not produced), muscles will progressively self-destruct over time. Obviously without community it's hard to be vulnerable. You are opening yourself only to be slammed down and judged.

If anyone has read this blog to this point, my condolences. Yet I want to take this opportunity to state that my friend Jordan does not infact have HIV, nor has he encountered any bacterial infection in his hair. I apologize for any confusion.

I realized this weekend that though I am an introvert, I can only be alone for so long. I was in Fargo this weekend with my parents gone so that I could get some studying done. However, after one night, I couldn't take it. Imagine, I actually desired to come back to Grand Forks. Very strange.

The Immune System Part II - HIV/AIDS

2006-11-05T19:59:00.000-06:00

How many of you have heard of AIDS? Can I get a show of hands? Ok good. How about HIV? Ok. So what's the difference? I mean aren't they the same? Well, actually they are not, though you cannot have one without the other.

HIV stands for Human Immunodeficiency Virus. Therefore it is a virus. AIDS stands for Acquired Immune Deficiency Syndrome. Therefore it is a syndrome or a combination of symptoms resulting from disease or infection. HIV is the virus that causes AIDS. Thus, as you probably figured out, if one can prevent getting HIV then this will stop the spread of AIDS.

The key to understanding HIV and AIDS is knowing what an immune deficiency is and what it results in. If you recall from last week, our immune system is what protects us from foreign substances that damage our body's normal function. Normally, our immune system is fighting off microscopic bacteria, fungi, single celled organisms called protozoa, and, more rarely, viruses (collectively referred to as "germs"). These germs are unavoidable contaminations from other people, door handles, hookahs, and anything else that is contacted by many different individuals (Jordan Raney's nest of hair for example was a highly susceptible environment for these germs, though no longer since his haircut - thanks Jordan). It does this through a variety of mechanisms that include those wonderful antibody producing B cells and T cells. Last week I covered B cells (see part I) so this week I will introduce to you T cells. Then, I will discuss what happens when they malfunction or disappear and how that contributes to HIV/AIDS.

T cells, like B cells, are first formed in the bone marrow and then, like B cells, go through a maturing and selection process so that our body doesn't produce immune cells that will attack itself. Unlike B cells, much of the T cell maturation process occurs in an organ of the body right on top of our heart called the Thymus (hence "T" cells).

Also like B cells, the mature T cell is transformed during its maturation into different forms that differ in function. There are essentially two forms of mature T cells, helper or CD4 T cells and cytotoxic or CD8 T cells. Helper CD4 T cells do precisely what their name implies, they help other cells. Namely, they help B cells to produce antibodies and another cell, called a macrophage ("big eater"), to consume and degrade foreign organisms. Cytotoxic or "killer" CD8 T cells release chemicals that kill infected cells in the body. Both CD4 and CD8 T cells work in concert to control infection so the body can return to its normal function.

When a person gets infected with HIV the virus actually infects CD4 T cells. But this takes time since T cells and B cells are not activated until several days later after an infection. This is why it usually takes over a week or two to get over a flu virus, if not longer. During this time lag the immune system is constantly producing new T cells and other immune cells to fight off the infection. Also, after HIV infects an individual, it is frequently mutating into different forms. This is part of the reason why it takes such a long time before symptoms of HIV actually develop in someone who's been infected, anywhere from 2-15 years. The number of CD4 T cells infected and killed increases significantly during this lag period as the amount of virus or the viral load increases. Remember that T cells play an important role in the immune response so as their number decreases so does the body's ability to fight infection. It's when the CD4 T cell level drops below a certain number, 200, that someone can be then diagnosed with having AIDS.

It is precisely the lack of ability to fight infection that makes AIDS an immunodeficiency. And as you can imagine the lack of immune ability means there is a greater opportunity for the body to be infected and damaged. Remember when I said that your body is continually, daily fighting micoscopic organisms; well when your immune system becomes deficient your body can no longer prevent these organism from infecting you. These infections are termed "opportunistic" since they only infect when they have the opportunity. Once infected, an immunodeficient person cannot stop the infection and it will progress to present various symptoms that fall under the "syndrome" part of AIDS. Eventually the infection or group of infections will progress to a point when an individual cannot repair damaged cells and will die.

So the take home lesson is DON'T GET HIV! And if you have it, don't spread it. Obvious no? Well why does this horrible virus still persist if preventing it's spread was so easy? Why is in fact growing at a rapid rate in some areas of the world like India and Southern Africa? Why is it spreading more and more among the heterosexual population here in the US? Why am I not the leader of the free world? Hmmm . . . sounds like a future blog to me. I hope this was a little more simpler than my last blog. Let me know if it wasn't.

This marks the end of my immunology course in two weeks at medical school. The next two weeks we'll be venturing into that marvelous, dynamic machinery known as the musculoskeletal system. Being as buff as I am, I think that I would be an expert in that system already. I guess we'll find out . . .

My Backyard

2006-11-04T18:37:00.000-06:00

The Immune System - Part I

2006-10-28T21:34:00.000-05:00

I think we can learn a lot about life from B cells. In case you didn't know, B cells are an important component of our immune system, the system of our body that protects us from infection and fights infection when it happens. They are the cells responsible for producing, among other things, antibodies (also referred to as "immunoglobulins"). These antibodies can further bind to foreign substances that damage our body so they can be eliminated or destroyed. So what can we learn from B cells you ask?

Well, first, we can learn that the human body is an incredibly organized piece of machinery, not an accident. You see, there are several steps before the stem cell in the bone marrow responsible for all white blood cells can become a B cell capable of producing antibodies, which is called a plasma cell. Each of these steps ensures that plasma cells will contain antibodies that bind only to proteins and/or carbohydrates from foreign substances, referred to as antigens. However, every cell, whether from an outside substance or from our very own bodies, whether it is harmful or whether it is helpful, is capable as serving as an antigen. And if the antibodies released by the plasma form of B cells were to bind to your own antigens (from your own cells), your immune system would react against your body. In fact, this does happen from time to time and is referred to as autoimmunity. Usually autoimmune diseases affect only one or two tissue(s), such as a pancreas or the intestine or the skin or hair follicles, and can be treated with appropriate medicines so that an affected individual can survive and live productive lives. For example, I have a condition called alopecia that is an autoimmune condition affecting hair follicles, causing hair loss. However, as all of you who know me know, there is absolutely nothing wrong with me . . . I mean, I'm practically perfect.

Ahem (clearing throat) . . . ok, what's absolutely crazy is that this condition, autoimmunity, does not happen more often and to a worse degree. After all, in the selectin of functioning and non-harmful B cells, there are about 55 million or over 2/3 (though probably more) of the total amount of B cells that are killed each day in the bone marrow! That's an extremely large number in case any of you are mathematically challenged. As far as T cells (which I'll discuss next week in regards to HIV), only 1% survive their maturation process.

For anyone who has studied the science of the human body, this should not be surprising. There are literally billions of different mechanisms that are going on in your body every second. Moreover, these mechanisms must function everyday for your survival. Now I've barely touched on the development of B cells, which is only one tiny part of the functioning of the entire body. There is also the heart, the brain, the liver, the kidneys, the pancreas, the lungs (to name a few); all very complex organisms that need to survive and all which develop in a unique way with different mechanisms and chemical intermediates. How all of this develops from one cell with two sets of chromosomes is beyond my comprehension. In fact, I could give you the names of many well practiced and intelligent physicians who would say the same. In light of this, I know that to sustain such complex biochemical interactions over time requires much order and organization. Furthermore, I don't think the concept that we are a by-product of millions of years of accidental chemical reactions is very plausible, though I will admit that my knowledge is still quite limited. However, I predict that as I learn more that this point will be be further proven to be correct. So, I guess the incredible organization of the human body is the first thing about life to be learned from B cells.

Second, from B cells, we can learn about love. Love? From B cells? Jeff, I respect you, but seriously, that's the most ridiculous thing I've ever heard - you should stop writing and stick to studying. Ok, I know it sounds strange, but bear with me.

As I will continue to demonstrate in my blogs, the different processes that run our bodies reflect a lot about different truths about life. As I've already mentioned, B cells play an important part in the immune system who's primary function is to serve and protect. The immune system is mainly concerned with your welfare. If it was concerned with itself, I think that it'd do a lot more to conserve one of its main consitituents. What I haven't mentioned is that the activated form of B cells, plasma cells, also make an important sacrifice. That is, after the plasma cell releases antibodies, it dies. Think about it. Now I know some of you are aware of memory cells, which are forms of B cells that stick around after an infection that "remember" the antigens of the specific invading foreign substance so that the body will be prepared next time. This is the principle behind vaccines. However, once activated, these memory cells will also become plasma cells that really serve as martyrs in order that the body receives the antibodies it needs to survive and stay healthy.

We must not automatically equate martyrdom with Love though. Certainly, suicide bombers don't give a damn about the the innocent bystanders who die because of their prideful show of how righteous they are. Love is not concerned with looking righteous, and certainly Love would never risk others lives if even it were for their own. Like B cells, Love always gives itself first, for the interest of others. Not that I exhibit this or am an expert, though I might say the rest of me is perfect (this is why I said "practically" perfect and not completely perfect, I still have some work to do).

So there you have it. B cells and life. Certainly there is a lot more to cover in regards to the immune system. However, since we are attempting to cover an entire course in immunology in two weeks, the flux of information entering my head is too much for you to read and for me to write. Feel free to respond with any questions, or objections, whether about immunity or anything else.

one block down, seven to go . . . and two more years

2006-10-16T21:45:00.000-05:00

okay, i'll be honest, i've probably never cried as frequently as i have in the past two months since junior high (another story for anyone who's interested). that undoubtedly sounds awkward, perhaps humorous, but i'm not ashamed. moving to a place where i don't want to be, where i do not know anyone, and, oh yeah, where i started medical school has been stressful to say the least (did i mention that i've been out of school for the past couple years and am a global studies major?). don't get me wrong, i'm so grateful to be in my position and to have these stresses, but sometimes life gets so overwhelming that any ability for you to see what you have gets scewed. i know that anyone in grad school can relate, but i think it applies to others as well.
it's good to have one block under my belt. i think i'm actually going to make it through this med school stuff. beer anyone?